"I have always believed that a person's upbringing plays the most important role in shaping their personality. In other words, if you put another person in your shoes, they may not necessarily do better than you."
"Thor may have a natural big heart, but it's still limited. People may think he's more generous than you, just because he has received more during his upbringing. The attention, affection, and status that you often struggle with, he can get without even trying. So of course he will be more generous, because he is already a beneficiary."
"And you doubt why you always think so much, why you always have these negative emotions, it's just because you have received less, or, compared to Thor, even less."
"Now, let's look at it from a different perspective. Suppose you are Odin's only son, that is to say, there is no Thor from beginning to end, but Odin still treats you the same way, just like what you used to receive..."
Loki fell into thought again, with Schiller's words ringing in his ears: "Without Thor as a reference, do you still feel like you have received very little?"
"Or rather, you want to tell me, as a prince of Asgard, what have you received? After all, I am just an ordinary person and cannot imagine your royal life."
"I... "Loki paused and said,"I have many privileges in Asgard, such as living in the grandest building in all of Asgard, having many palace guards at my disposal, exclusive carriages for travel, and the Rainbow Bridge at my beck and call. We have exclusive royal robes, and the helmet symbolizing the honor of the Asgardians..."
"Except for the King and Queen and Thor, everyone bows to me, regardless of their rank. I have my own guards, specialized swordsmanship instructors, etiquette officials, coachmen, and I own over 30 streets of industry, as well as two independent dimensional territories..."
"Okay, stop talking." Schiller put down his cup on the table again, this time his voice was louder, and Loki was stunned, looking at him. Schiller said, "I will definitely send your brother a surprising bill."
"Well, I know you must be thinking that Thor has more, but I have to tell you that both of your lives are incredibly privileged, not only compared to ordinary people on Earth, but also to ordinary Asgardians.""When people feel that their lives are not satisfactory, it is often because they feel that they are not close enough to their goals. So what is your goal?"
"This question may be too broad, but I can give you a detailed example. Do you think this kind of life is not privileged enough, and you want more land and property, endless wealth and status, or is it just because you have received less than Thor? As long as you have more than him, you're satisfied?"
Before Loki could answer, Schiller said, "Logically, everyone should pursue the former, after all, who doesn't love money in this world?"
"But from your current state, you seem to be the latter, because when Thor is down and you are stronger than him, you suddenly become satisfied with your life."
"How do you know that I am satisfied with my life?" Loki asked.
Schiller shrugged and said, "Simply put, people need motivation to do things. The driving force inside is complex, it can be because of specific things, such as pursuing enjoyment or revenge, or it can be because of abstract things, such as the realization of self-worth."
"When you don't do something, or when you have the opportunity to do something but give up and just want to stay in one place, it proves that this motivation is no longer strong enough."
"This is mostly because the goal has been achieved, such as having endless money, revenge has been successful, or one has already achieved their life's value through certain means. Have you not realized that you are just idling now?"
Schiller looked at Loki and said, "Don't tell me that you were born to love serving those difficult clients and exploring the limits of human understanding and communication."
Loki opened his mouth and took a breath. He realized that he couldn't refute Schiller's words. He covered his forehead and began to reflect.
What is he doing now? Why doesn't he plot some schemes that could shake the Nine Realms, instead of working nine to five here?
"Although I don't want to make a rash inference, based on my knowledge of you, normally, you should be planning a bigger conspiracy, like finding something to kill your brother..."
"But you didn't do that, the reason might be the change in your lifestyle. Suddenly, you surpassed Thor, not only in terms of quality of life, but also in his most cherished field, which is honor, and you have enough time to mock him."
"Although you haven't admitted it yourself, you should be very satisfied with this kind of life, so you stay here, not doing anything important, just trying to kill time."
Loki clasped his fingers together and said, "Am I really satisfied? Why do I feel..."
"What? Do you feel a little useless? Do you feel that your goals and ideals are not lofty enough? Then what do you want to do? Kill Thor first, then Odin, and then unite the Nine Realms?"
"That is indeed a good goal, and you can certainly do it with your ability, but if you really want to make it your goal, then you wouldn't be sitting here, right?"
"When you learned that you were not Odin's biological son, that was an important turning point in your life. You had two choices, either go back to Asgard pretending to know nothing, or..."
As Schiller looked at Loki, Loki also looked at him, and continued Schiller's words, "Or...find Thor."
"You want to see him, don't you?"
"That's rare." Schiller raised the pen in his hand and said, "Generally speaking, when people feel pain, they prefer to call for their mother."
Loki turned his head, not wanting to pay attention to the irony in Schiller's tone. Schiller continued, "The first half is over, let's review it."
"The conclusion from the hypothesis of exchanging identities is that all the emotions you are experiencing now are normal, and it would be the same for anyone else. Then we found out that Thor appears more magnanimous, not because he is better than you, but because of the different growth environments."
"Afterward, we explored how changes in circumstances lead to a weakening of inner motivation, and thus inferred that your goals are only stronger than Thor's."
"I think you have some new understanding of your relationship with Thor, so next, we come to another question that you are more interested in, that is your relationship with Odin."
When Odin's name was mentioned, Loki's expression remained complicated, and he didn't even realize the change in his facial muscles.
"Perhaps you are expecting me to give you a great theoretical analysis, but it's difficult." Schiller sighed and said, "Because the data you provided is not enough, and there are too many variables, so I can't provide you with psychological counseling based on these uncertain factors, which may cause significant deviation."
"What uncertain...data?"
"For example, what is your relationship with Odin? Are you really his biological son? If you are not his biological son, then why did he turn you into his son? What is his purpose in raising you? And so on..."
"Your relationship with Odin is more complicated, and in this situation, certain logical conclusions are not valid, and there are many possible options at the end. If you insist on exploring it to the deepest level, it will only make you more confused."
"So regarding this part, I can only give you two suggestions. The first is to figure out what is really going on, and the second is..."
Schiller drew out his words, Loki looked at him but didn't get an answer, he asked, "What is it?"
Schiller changed his posture, he put his forearm on the table, raised his shoulder and looked at Loki, asking, "Have you ever caused trouble since you were a child?"
"Of course not." Loki said very confidently, "I am not Thor, I have completed every task given to me by the father of the gods perfectly."
"Since you haven't caused any trouble, how do you know that Odin won't clean up mess for you?"
Loki pursed his lips, his tone somewhat incredulous, "Are you suggesting that I...cause trouble?"
"While I'm not sure what kind of person Odin is, from some of the stories brought back by Strange, I've heard that Odin was also impulsive when he was young, much like Thor."
"Generally speaking, parents have greater tolerance for children who are similar to themselves because they have also gone through that stage and know that for certain personalities, some mistakes are unavoidable."
"Your main insecurity right now comes from the fact that you originally thought Odin wouldn't tolerate your mistakes, and now that you've found out you're not his biological son, you feel even less tolerated."
"But I think you can try, if you don't try, he'll never know where the line is, and maybe you'll get a surprise."
Loki found it difficult to describe his current mood, he said, "Are you trying to incite me to cause trouble?"
"I didn't say that, I'm just giving you a normal psychological counseling session." Schiller still kept his head down and fiddled with the pen in his hand, saying, "Once you've achieved your goal and entered a state of self-satisfaction and idleness, people will instinctively start looking for something fun to do, and you're no exception."
When Loki returned to the apartment, it was still light outside, so Thor hadn't gone to work yet. He was holding takeout and was opening the packaging, taking out the fried chicken from inside.
Thor still had long hair, but his beard was trimmed shorter, wearing a cheap sweatshirt from somewhere, his hands were full of oil. Looking at this scene, Loki held back his thoughts. Sometimes, not digging too deep might be a good thing.
"I've never really understood why you consider someone like him as an opponent." Venom said in Loki's mind, "Why don't we go downstairs and play on the seesaw...oh, we're the same person, we can't play on the seesaw, that's a shame."
"...that's your relationship with your brother."
Loki ignored him and sat on the sofa opposite Thor, using his hand to flick the takeout box in front of Thor. Thor was surprised by his actions, looked up at him and asked, "Don't you dislike greasy fried chicken?"
Then he proactively opened the lid facing Loki, pressed it down, revealing the fried chicken inside, and pushed the box to the center of the coffee table, saying, "My money's only enough for a small portion, but if you want to eat it too, I can give you a few pieces."
Loki withdrew his hand, propped it on his knee, and used his hand to support his chin. He saw that there were probably only five or six pieces of fried chicken in the box, even for a small portion, it was too little.
Thor shrugged and said, "Their taste is really good, it's just a bit expensive and small in portion, but it's okay, we still have this..."
He dragged out a plastic bag with a packaged can of beer from under the coffee table. When he picked it up, he found that there was only one can of beer left inside. He said, "Well, it's better than nothing."
He took out the can of beer, opened the tab on the top of the can, and placed it on the table. He saw Loki sitting still and not moving. Thor asked puzzledly, "What are you doing? Go get a cup."
Then he paused and said, "Okay, I won't make fun of you for drinking from a cup, but only this time."
"Do you need me to tell you? Actually, you really want to..."
Venom's voice sounded, but Loki interrupted him and said, "That's right, I really want to punch him."
"Well, it seems that not only humans, but gods are also like this..."
When Venom's voice disappeared, the sound of beer foaming into the cup sounded. At this time, the sky outside the window darkened, and the gentle breeze blew the curtains up and down. After the temperature dropped, the autumn evening breeze began to become colder, but the sound of insects disappeared, and everything became more peaceful.
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