It was after an entire day had passed by when Gu Rong regained his consciousness in the hospital. He remembered the events in a jumble.
Before he thought he would be knocked out for good after the stab wound, he pulled out the knife from his abdomen. He violently coughed out blood and even though he knew it was dangerous to pull out the knife like that, he didn't care about it and plunged it into Luo Liuxian.
"Master!"
Butler Mo rushed towards him, his head wrapped with bandages. "You are awake…"
"Jiahao. Your head…" he swallowed a gulp. "I am sorry. I am really-"
He shook his head. "It's not your fault, Master. I am doing okay now."
Gu Rong breathed out in relief for a moment. But tension gripped him immediately.
"Yating…Where is Yating!? What happened after I passed out?" He asked in a state of panic.
"He is here only," he pointed out at the back where the crib was. Yating was peacefully sleeping on his bed.
Butler Mo's eyes teared up. "He was awake for a long time, Master. He kept staring at you worriedly as if he was waiting for you to wake up."
Gu Rong slightly trembled. He kept his gaze fixed at the sleeping Yating, not knowing how to feel. A lump formed in his throat and he couldn't express enough how he was thankful to see him safe.
"...And Liuxian?"
Butler Mo pressed his lips in silence. "The cops brought her to the hospital too but…she couldn't make it."
He froze.
The words hit him like a storm tearing his heart apart into two. Before he knew it , tears fell out, wetting the pillow beneath him.
Luo Liuxian was dead. The woman he once loved so dearly was no more in this world and he was the one to end it for her.
The short but happy memories gushed within him. The time that he spent with her. His heart that he shared with her. Everything came to him in slow motion. He had never imagined in a million years that he would end up killing her himself. He never thought that life would bring him to this point of so much hatred towards her.
"Where did I go wrong?"
A question escaped his lips akin to a tremor. He clenched his fists as the deep and buried pain and grief of all this time finally let out in the form of his wails. Gu Rong let himself cry without any barrier for the first time in months.
"Tell me, Jiahao. Where did I go wrong? I loved her with all my heart. I tried everything in my power to give her the best life I could. I dreamt of living a happy life with her. I just wanted her to be by my side.
Then when…when she did she drift so far away from me? O-or did I drift away from her unknowingly? Where…did I lack in my efforts that my life, my hopes, my love failed so miserably?"
Butler Mo's eyes ached as he shared the tears. "You didn't fail, Master. You did everything with a pure heart. You shared your life with her but Miss. Luo couldn't. That was the difference that tumbled down everything."
Gu Rong sobbed in silence. He placed his palm over his eyes crying out his heart as raw as he could ever be.
"I don't know…I don't know what to do about Yating, Jiahao. At times I feel that I should keep him by my side. At times I feel it would be difficult because he would remind me of her betrayal. I wonder if I will be able to love him like a real father. Should I keep him? Or should I give him up?
I don't understand anything…"
Butler Mo smiled a gentle smile. "I think you have had that answer for a long time now, Master."
He looked at him, confused. An adorable yawn then sounded from the other side.
Little Yating opened his eyes and turned his head sideways. His black irises glimmered and opened wider in utter joy as he found Gu Rong finally awake.
"Aaaaa…Aaaaa…." He furiously began to wave his hands towards him.
Butler Mo lifted him from the crib and gently placed him by Gu Rong's side. The latter hesitated but he also felt relieved that Yating wasn't injured anywhere.
"Aaaa…aaa…"
Yating joyfully patted his face with his hands, giggling and laughing. "Aaaa…Daaaa…daaaaa…"
Gu Rong blinked twice while Butler Mo gasped in disbelief.
"Daaaa…Daaaa…" Yating expressed his bliss to see his father awake by moving and swaying his whole body. He then crashed his head against his chest. "Daaa…Daaa…"
"M-Master…he is…he is perhaps trying to say Dada…" Butler Mo cried out a river of joy.
Gu Rong parted and closed his lips, unable to react. He felt his brain shut completely. Something tickled and fluttered in his chest as if the dark, menacing clouds were drifting away into oblivion.
He raised his arm and tremblingly placed it over Yating's head.
"Daaaa?" Yating tilted his head and then laughed melodiously.
Gu Rong stared into his sparkling black orbs and felt like an invisible force sucking him into his sweet world.
At this moment, was he thinking that Yating wasn't his real son?
Was he thinking that he symbolized Luo Liuxian's betrayal?
Was he hating Yating at this moment?
No. Those thoughts and apprehensions were far from what Gu Rong was thinking about.
"Say Jiahao."
"Yes, Master."
"Yating is just like me. We are standing at the same place. Liuxian betrayed me as a wife and she betrayed Yating as a mother. The woman who was supposed to be the most important pillar of our life ended up leaving us all alone."
Butler Mo lowered his gaze.
"So…So Jiahao. Liuxian had already left Yating long ago. He was always dead to her. If I give up on him too, then who would Yating have to depend on? Who…" his voice choked, "Who would I be left with to rely on?"
Gu Rong wrapped his arms around his back and pulled him closer. Yating brightened and laughed heartily.
"That's why I have decided, Jiahao," he said, his misty eyes coming to a firm determination.
"Yating is my son. Yating will always be my son. I will raise him. I will give him everything that I couldn't give to Liuxian. I will be Yating's father. I am Yating's father.
Yating is Gu Yating from this moment."
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